the feeling

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So i work at tk maxx... and let me tell you i did imagine it to be alot more boring than it 's turned out to be..

Lol and it's true what they say the the excitement is in the find!

tk maxx delivers believe it or not haha whilst working on the fitting rooms ive spotted so many nice little potential additions to my wardrobe or dear! i am definatly oin shopping at the end of the month woop!

haha i'm gonna blow all my money aren't i :/

what with buying a new camera and all the clothes ive got in mind hmmmm. anyways i do enjoy working there its kind of interesting the people you come across on the tills and GOSH some people are moody turn that smile upside donw people !

Let me keep it real.

It’s hard to keep up with the present when you’re making plans for the future

I don’t feel as though reality is with me some times and it’s hard to snap back to now
some times I ask myself is now even real?
Sometimes I tell myself now isn’t important. Fool I am of course it is, if my plans are wrong today my future won’t work tomorrow.
However every now and then I feel I don’t want this, and sometimes i think you agree
and as I reflect I wonder to myself and question my actions i seek an answer to why i do this?
LET me keep it absolutely real with you. Sometimes I question if any of you want to be in my future if not your not worthy of my present. I’ve had enough of a bad taster of broken friendships lost crushes and that sickening feeling in the pit of my stomach you give me every now and again.
Every now and again i wish to be alone without you. I wish to build my great empire and crown myself queen, ALL BY MYSELF.

just a random thought that spriraled out of control..

It's not right but its okay...

yazmindah bullying me quite evidently thought i'd share a few pictures..

hmm in away im glad we're going the same college should be rather interesting... lol

Broken ideas.

i have no camera i am really saddened by this small factor that is missing in my life right now

however come payday hopefully i will have a digital toy in my grips again ;P

Wake Me Up When Sepetember Ends,

So I guess this is a little early, but alas we have reached the end of the bliss of British summers (hmm) In evaluation of myself and what i have managed to achieve this past few months i feel i have achieved nothing ha.

It has taken me three months to get a job and ofcourse i am successful i start at tkmaxx on tuesday ;) my gosh its bloody hard to get a job and im pretty sure it was a complete fluke but whatever.

i have errr spent endless nights on msn till stupid times on the morning and ofcoarse i have achieved waking up past 12 every day :)

also I have shopped a little which has been okay i suppose although i havent completly managed to transform my image

i have err// managed to curl my hair WHICH was a complete surprise to me LOL! i thought all my hair did was fro fro. all thanks to www.biracialhair.org take a look it really is great haha some plug =D

umm ive had a couple of great days and ''summer'' nights

however all in all my camera broke and this summer was poop

=/

i failed to start up Pen of the poet :/

which was my brilliantly brialliant idea to make spoekn word as big as grime in manchester ;)

lol don't worry ou havent seen the last of Miss Tetteh.

thats me for now anyway

goodmorrow.x

lalalala beashum is bored

so this is me re-teaching myself how to draw anime eyes, i've also learnt how to do a couple of new eyes too. hopefully one day ill be able to do a really cool drawing that looks half decent lol =P

And so it rains as it always does. It is cold and it is miserable and somehow and just can't find the words to explain how dissapointing july is in manchester. These days are hard but i survive through taking my usual and unhealthy dose of facebook/youtube/msn/internet/music/ i have learnt alot today like how to download a template on my blog its not hard i realise but baby steps remember baby steps.. err i have posted several blogs today, i have tidied my home, i have finished the book i was reading... and i have well thats it i think..

dearr ohh dearrr

i do believe i could go positively insane sat at home all summer like this.

i need a job.

but then so does everyone..

right im done and im still bored hooraah im going to make some grub.

peace xx

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For me this poem describes a feeling i was experiencing towards the end of school, it is one where you think through your actions to the point where you find yourself reasoning with the reasons you have for doing things hence my ''reasoning with reasoning''.

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Looped in time, the only voice I can hear is mine,

with deliberate reasoning the truth is diluted,
my mind polluted, and I cannot seem to reason
with my reasoning.

I cannot seem to reason with reasoning,

half past time as the time half past.
too fast too little time and too much matter
I cannot process short circuit, blown fuse,
discontinue use. Withdraw allegation